Resolution 2

Everything is like tumbling down on me . I’m doing the wrong things. I think i am hurting others . But , really , i’m just hurting myself.

Love yourself . Take care of yourself . Spiritually. Emotionally. Physically. Mentally.

Resolution no.1

Find your voice . Speak your mind . Faster . Louder . Boldly. Confidently . Without fear .

Do not stop here . Continue .

Just went for a revision class with DK today . Right now , i’m like living in a pressure cooker .

It not easy . From the class , I realize , though i found surgery interesting and had special interest in it in the past , i failed to really know it well . There were so many things that i could not answer . Need to triple my efforts and study wisely .

Our professional examination , EOS 7 , will be in 5 weeks . I should have about 25% . All i need is another 25 % at least . The 3 components : OSCE , OSPE and SAQ ( 30% , 10% , 20% ) .

I would need to emphasise and score in OSCE . That is 8 long cases ( each 10 minutes ) and 8 short cases ( each 5 minutes ) . That’s not many questions. Roughly 1 each posting .

In obstetric now , with so many things pending to be completed . Tonight will be another night without sleep . Got to read about anemia in pregnancy and ethics .

The stress has started to build up . Feel very anxious and worried most of the time . But , that’s not going to help in any way . There are times when i just feel i am going to break  , like i’m going to explode , like i really need to stop and have a long holiday .

I know its going to be ok . But i want to come out from exam hall on the 14th of February , feeling confident that I’ve definitely passed .

So , No ! I cannot stop right now! I can definitely achieve that .

Lets’ do this !!

Off She Goes!

Dim Sum breakfast with the younger sister before she goes off to study.

I wonder what my parents would do at home now. With my sister going to HELP college , the house is left with em parents , Chiobu (our dog) , and Ana (our new helper).

Hmm. Bond with Ana perhaps ?

Christmas Presents

Muahahaha!!!! All my online purchases have arrived!

I’ve waited so long to finally see them!

Time to donate some clothes away.

Lesson that I learnt : Never buy white colour clothes online. They are white on screen but beige in front of your eyes .

 

Shouldn’t You Be Working ?

Discovered this really useful extension for google chrome that blocks all the websites that distract me from my work.

The programmers are geniuses!

Everything You Want

Have you heard of the band Vertical Horizon  ? Have you listened to Everything You Want before ?

Boyce Avenue Everything You Want Cover

This song was released in year 1999 . That was 12 years ago . I was in Standard 5 . The blur-est , most quiet kid in the class .

After 12 years , I believe , I still am that kid .

I remember that year vividly .

I was the top of my class when i was in Standard 1 . But , that only continued till the end of that year when i was in standard 1 . Some kid from KL replaced me . >,<  Since then , I was ,most of the time, in the 20th to 30th position in my class of 40 plus . And it was that year , when i was in Standard 5 , that i decided to complete my homework everyday and study whatever my teacher taught me in class when i came back from school . When my end of the year exam results were out , my teacher was surprised . Heck , even my parents were surprised ( actually, it was more of a shock ) that i improved from my 23rd position to 7th in class . I remember my teacher praised me for the shocking improvements i achieved in my studies . The turtle has finally came out from her shell to face the world .

From then on , i was encouraged and motivated to learn . =D

I can’t remember much of my primary school years . All i knew was that I was very quiet . My teachers would say that i didn’t want to talk because i had gold in my mouth . I bet they wondered if i should  have been placed in a Special Needs school =) One of my neighbour , who was also my secondary school mate , use to tell everyone how quiet and shy i was in primary school . He always told the others that whenever he came over to play Sega with my brothers , I would miraculously disappear . Actually , that’s really what happened . When guests came to the house , i would run upstairs .

I guess i was really shy and insecure back then .

Despite being that quiet , i still had a few  friends . Tan Jia Yi . She was my best friend . I remember Jia Yi and I played basket ball during the PJ class one day . We were in the same team .  I was near the hoop , so she passed the ball to me . I don’t know how but I accidentally sprained my index finger when i received the ball . And i could not throw the ball properly into the hoop due to the pain . I remember my PJ teacher giving me an expression indicating something like “how could you have missed that ” …  My index finger was swollen for 2 days after that  . And that was the last time i played basketball . Hence , i never grew any taller after that . >,<

After 12 year , i still am who i was . Maybe with slight changes here and there . But i still feel that i am that quiet , insecure , low self-esteemed kid when i was in primary school . I try very hard to change . But i guess it will always be part of me .

Its not that being quiet and insecure is wrong . But , you know , i think its only right to speak our minds and build relationships with the people around us .

This song is very special to me . 12 years . In these 12 years , i had listened to it more than any other songs . Not throughout the whole year . But  many times in a year .

This year’s annual affair with the song came in December , the most wonderful time of the year  =) I love this song ! Makes my December the more special .

Going caroling now ! =)

Merry Christmas !

Signatures

My afternoon spent drawing signatures. =) SRC Treasury duty calls.

No sleep tonight

This is the list of what i need to know before I sleep tonight.

It’s 11 pm.

I don’t feel like reading at all. The eye lids are heavy.

This time. It’s like a gamble. Everything not very sure. Going to just rely on the knowledge I gain from the wards.*gulp*

Ok. Gotta start now.

Cheers !

Results are out !

Results are out!!!

I finally know the outcome of my doubts. I’ve been waiting for this for 4 weeks already.

Results weren’t too bad. Didn’t meet my expectations though. I wonder which questions I did wrong for the orthopedics theory paper.

Clinical examination was OK . .  Enough to reward myself a brownie and a tuna bun =) Kedai Kek & roti imbi sells the most delicious buns in town . LOVE at first bite !

Having clinical exams for pediatrics on Wednesday ! No expectations this time. Just want to get over it. Despite the fact that i’ve been having a lot of fun in Pediatrics posting , I still can’t find a connection to it . I don’t really know how to examine a child’s abdomen properly . I would really love to go through Pediatrics again . My problem now – i don’t know how to present my case .My timeline is always wrong . My lecturers never have an idea about the crap i’m talking about when i am presenting .

Hmmm.. I’m going to have a major problem on Wednesday .

Alright now . All the best in exams peeps.